I guess I should have learned how to swim before I went to the deep end... right now I'm near the bottom of the pool ...I have been sinking for the last 2 months or so....
Why does losing weight and keeping it off have to be so hard? I know it should be easy... don't eat junk and dust the cobwebs off of my sneakers... easy....
My plan was to start my program back up today. I have "kinda" done that. I have had the Medifast meals ...but I've also chiseled away at a Dutch apple pie that I bought from our church fundraiser yesterday... taking little bites here and there. I've also not had a single sip of water today... Diet Mountain Dew has been my beverage of choice today. OK, that's really sad...better go get a bottle of water from the fridge... now! .........MUCH better!
I did get a compliment today, a girl I know said I look fabulous. I said thanks and smiled. On the inside though, I don't really feel fabulous... I feel like another "f-word" ...NO, not THAT f-word! haha! I feel like a failure. I did manage to lose 97 lbs. Apparently, I thought after doing that, that I was bulletproof, that I could eat whatever I wanted and that it was ok. Wrong.
I guess in the end I can't consider myself a complete failure. I have not gained back all of my weight, not even a half, or a third... I am going to try to pick up the pieces and put myself and my health back together.
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